Ciao, belter: why I'm selling my Lancia Delta Integrale after 24 years

Since that time the Lancia has covered barely 9000 miles. I’m back in Scotland now, but the car largely remains an exhibit because I now have two young kids, and because a function of the Delta’s rarity and provenance means it’s now worth proper money.

In 2017, a mint, 4000-mile Giallo Ferrari sold in New York for £142,000, and a British 17,000-miler made £105,000 in 2022. My car is tidy enough but leggier at 87,000 miles, so it has been estimated at five grand either side of £60,000: a welcome windfall for a growing family – unlike the cost of continued maintenance for a car I now barely drive.

One of the regular comments people make about the car is ‘don’t ever sell it’. I’ve always replied by saying I won’t unless I have to. Well, that time has come. And I’m not finding it easy. I’ve literally lost sleep over selling other cars and motorbikes, but this is a particular torment.

I know it’s not logical and, to some, will seem more than a bit silly. Of course, I’m fortunate to have owned a special car such as this and that the Delta has become valuable. But countering a matter of the heart with a matter of the head  is like squaring a circle.

To try to make sense of why the likes of you and I feel so strongly about our cars, and maybe to help negotiate the emotional trauma of disposing of mine, I’ve called upon psychologist Dr Christian Jarrett, editor of digital magazine Psyche.

In clinical terms, I’m grappling with ‘object attachment’, and some of Jarrett’s writing on the subject (for The Psychologist magazine) strikes a chord. Possessions can become so entwined with our personality as to become extensions of the self.

This could be down to wiring – in our medial prefrontal cortex, if you’re interested. Jarrett cites a study by fellow psychologist Kyungmi Kim that concluded: “Areas of the brain that are known to be involved in thinking about the self also appear to be involved when we create associations between external things and ourselves through ownership.”

It begins at an early age: studies show children as young as six apportion extra significance to objects merely by dint of it being ‘theirs’. Even babies fly into a rage when dispossessed of a favourite toy. “It’s as if the children believed their special object had a unique essence, a form of magical thinking that reappears in adulthood in our treatment of heirlooms, celebrity memorabilia and artwork,” wrote Jarrett.

I ask him: how can we become so attached to our cars? “Psychologists have long recognised that our relationship to belongings is emotional, rather than rational and logical,” he says. “The value we place in something increases as soon as we call it our own – known as the ‘endowment effect’. It is as if our things become infused with our identity, and it’s very easy for us to become sentimental about them.

“There is plenty of scope for cars to become deeply entwined with many of our important autobiographical memories – such as cherished holidays or as markers of particular chapters in our lives. This might contribute to them feeling more like a fellow traveller.

A car’s smells and sounds could enrichen these associations further and help give different cars their own unique character. First cars, in particular, might be bound up with the transition to adulthood. And with so many varied brands, and the long cultural histories of many models, there is also great opportunity to use one’s car as a way to signal a sense of belonging and identity.”

And what would be a psychologist’s counter-argument to those who say ‘it’s just a car’? Jarrett says: “Of course, it is possible to downplay the value of any physical object, as compared with the sanctity of living things.

However, objects often acquire a meaning to us far beyond their physical function. People who lose their homes in natural disasters or suffer the loss of a cherished heirloom in a robbery often describe experiencing a kind of grief, as if they have lost part of themselves.

This emotional attachment could easily apply to a car, and to derogate it as a mere physical thing is to underestimate the deep connections we can form to our personal belongings.” (I look forward to repeating this verbatim to my car-agnostic other half.)

Finally, I ask for tips to help mentally process selling the car. “Borrow ideas from how people manage and express their grief for loved ones,” he suggests. “You could make an effort to cherish your memories of the car, such as by creating a photo album of places you’ve been in it, writing a story about your experiences in it or taking it for one last treasured journey.”

It is, therefore, strictly on doctor’s orders that I liberate the Delta from its protective Carcoon bubble for one final summer’s evening raid. I feel a Pavlovian response to holding the slim, fobless keys in my hand, the chunky thunk of the central locking, tapping the transponder on the aftermarket immobiliser (Thatcham-approved, naturally), the resistance of the ignition barrel and the resulting start-up that brings an expectant whirr from the engine above the exhaust’s bass note.

All eight diagnostic panel LEDs extinguish (always a nervy moment for Integrale owners), and we’re off.

It’s not far from my Edinburgh home to a particular favourite B-road: smooth and twisty, it climbs and falls over wild hills, with arrow-like straights through the valleys. There is no traffic and, importantly, I have no passengers: this is a private communion on medical advice, a consolidation of personal memories.

Peering over the bulging, tabletop bonnet, I’m gently slotting the rubbery gearstick between second, third and fourth and keeping the 210bhp, 220lb ft inline four on a simmer, but there’s still lots of lag until the Garrett T3 turbocharger gathers its faculties and stuffs a bar of pressure into the engine. It responds in a frenzy of acceleration: with just 1300kg to move, the 33-year-old Evo still shifts.

It’s in combining that shove with the sublimely intuitive and progressive steering, the lavish suspension travel and the unwavering grip offered by the mechanical four-wheel drive system that adds up to the Integrale’s distinctive dynamic character. The contact patches are tacked down as it swallows back-road undulations and mid-corner lumps whole, with neither the skittishness nor the bucking of many modern counterparts.

And then there are the looks: brilliantly brawny, epically quadrate. All of which brings me an intense and immediate happiness like few things in life can. Ultimately, it is the impending cessation of this that is leaving me down in the mouth.

Yes, I have lots of magnificent and vivid recollections associated with this car. But for most of them, the car wasn’t incidental to the memory – it was the memory. How it felt on that sun-kissed recce by Lake Como; the day-long charge home from Dover; or the thrash across The String on the Isle of Arran. Even the countless, rain-sodden countryside commutes of those early days are immutable memories.

Indeed, while people might associate a treasured thing with a particular experience – say, a nicknack from a favourite holiday, a photo of a family gathering, or a wedding ring – for the likes of us with an automotive affliction, a car can be both the thing and the experience. But not every car.

I hold a great deal of affection for our crusty family hack, a 2009 Volkswagen Tiguan. But at the risk of making things weird, that’s a platonic relationship. I could (but won’t) harry it around the Green Hell to the best of my ability without risk of it marking my soul. It makes my life easier but not richer.

Unlike the Delta. And that is in spite of its numerous flaws: the symphony of scuttle shake, the heaving body roll and the suspension’s wincing sensitivity to sharp edges. Not to mention the occasionally eye-watering cost of maintenance and preservation. Yet, as with all of life’s rose-tinted recollections, I will remember the thrills more than the bills.